If you are feeling suicidal, please read this...

I know how it feels.  

You feel stuck.  You feel hopeless.  You are tired of the pain of living - - and it is painful to feel this depressed, isn't it?  

It hurts in your chest.  It hurts in your heart.  It hurts in your head.  It hurts to breathe.  It hurts to think.

And you do think.  You think a lot.  You think, "I can't face living another 40 or 50 or 60 years like this.  I can't even face living through today..." You think, "Everyone would be better off without me.  They might miss me for awhile and then they'd go on and they'd be better off."  You think, "Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if I hurt myself..."

Stop!  This is not true!

You would be missed.  Your life is worth living.  And someday, the pain will stop.  It will.  I promise you that.  And when it does stop hurting, you will be so glad that you are still alive - that you hung in there one more minute, one more hour, one more day.  You'll realize just how special you are and that your presence on this earth makes it a better place for the rest of us.  We'd miss you if you were gone... and you'd miss out on all of the wonders out there for you.

How do I know this?  Because I was you once.  I thought that I couldn't stand living anymore.  I thought everything was hopeless.  I thought that everyone would be better off without me and that I didn't have anything of value to offer the world.  I really believed that for a while.

But I don't feel that way anymore and every day, every hour, every minute I'm so glad that I stayed alive.  I'm so glad that I made myself get through it.  It was the hardest thing I've ever done, but now I can say that I truly understand what happiness is.  

It's that familiar teaching, "Opposition in all things..."

You appreciate happiness more when you've been in that dark pit of suicidal depression and have struggled and climbed out of it.  You appreciate the sunlight when you no longer need to hide from life in a closet.  You appreciate just feeling "normal."

So if you are feeling suicidal, please get some help.  Force yourself to ask for help.  Pick up the phone and dial 911.  Go in the other room and ask your husband or your dad for a blessing.  Get on your knees and beg the Lord to get you through the next hour.  

Don't listen to that voice in your head that tells you that you must destroy yourself.  It's a lie.  The "great" lie of all lies told by the adversary of us all.  If he can just get you to believe it, then he will win.  Don't let him.  Don't let him make you believe it's true.

Believe instead that you are a child of a loving Heavenly Father who wants you to succeed and be happy.  It's part of the plan that this life comes with illnesses and sadness and hard times, but he has promised us that we can get through it and that he will help us, if we will just ask him to.  Believe that it's very important to him and to you that you get through the next little while.  If you can just do that, it will get better.  It will.  It really will.

So do something about how you are feeling, right now! Call somebody. Go next door and ask your neighbor for help. Go to a hospital and tell them that you don't feel safe.  Make yourself open your mouth and say, "I'm sick and I need you to help me."

Please, do it.  Do it right now... and then, once you are safe and you feel up to it, let me know that you are okay. I'm so worried about you. I pray for you everyday and think about you all of the time. You are the reason I have written my book and built this website. I don't know you, but I do know you and I want you to know that I care about you.  

God bless you.

Love,

Rozanne

 

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